[ Jane's features soften an incredible amount at that and she reaches out to squeeze Peggy's hand. ]
Thank you. I have Avery back and that's...it's incredible, but she's grown up, she doesn't need me the way she used to, so to have this, to start again and know it won't be taken away? That's the best part.
-- Daughters always need their mothers. [ peggy, quite on instinct, touches the little golden medallion she's nearly always worn around her neck. ] Or a mother, I suppose, of some variety. Blood or otherwise. It's only the way in which they're needed that changes.
[ it's a bit of a tough topic. she knows, after all, that jane's experience as a daughter is leagues more complicated than her experience as a mother may be. but it's not biology that makes it important; it's love.
this is about looking forward. not looking back. ]
[ Jane isn't sure who that mother figure is for her anymore. But maybe she doesn't need one. She is the mother now, and maybe that's what she has to focus on. Avery has her, and her baby will have her. Shepherd is irrelevant to the equation now. ]
You know, if you were there, with me at home and we had this, I'd...
[ Is this appropriate to say? God, she hopes so, and Jane continues. ]
I'd make you godmother. If you wanted to be, of course. And it doesn't even matter here. I know it's a weird thing to even bring up, considering.
[ something sweet and warm steals over her. and for not the first time this month, peggy's heart seems to seize with too much love. she used to be better (she knows) at keeping herself divorced from so much sentimentality. she wasn't without her connections back home, of course, but they were kept distant and minimal and always just a touch too frigid. even angie was left at arm's reach. for her own good, always.
peggy's breath catches. after a moment, she remembers to exhale. raw feeling gives way to something wry and protective. defensive only because she's unaccustomed to feeling quite this happy. ]
...A year ago, I would have laughed you out of the room.
[ and that's the truth. peggy carter, someone's godmum? ]
But for better or worse, Tony Stark is proof that I can be something to someone's child. [ so peggy slumps; she smiles. ] You say it doesn't matter here, Jane, but I think it actually matters quite a lot. The trust is there, after all, even if the duty isn't.
[ which is her very careful way of saying yes, god, of course she's accept. ]
[ Without thinking too much about it, Jane reaches over and wraps Peggy in a hug. She really loves this woman, her friend, the person who protected her fiercely and a friend whom Jane would do the exact same for. But, best not push it all tonight and overwhelm them both with admissions and words. The same feeling will still be there the next time good news abounds.
She should think differently maybe, that people disappear in Wonderland all the time and everyone should know how you feel at any given moment, but her mood is too light, too happy, for it to cross her mind. ]
Maybe I should be thanking Tony Stark, then, for softening you up.
[ Jane's teasing, and she pulls back. ]
I trust you. With everything.
[ Her fears, her tattoos, her burdens. It means a lot to her that in return, Peggy has trusted her with so very much. ]
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Thank you. I have Avery back and that's...it's incredible, but she's grown up, she doesn't need me the way she used to, so to have this, to start again and know it won't be taken away? That's the best part.
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[ it's a bit of a tough topic. she knows, after all, that jane's experience as a daughter is leagues more complicated than her experience as a mother may be. but it's not biology that makes it important; it's love.
this is about looking forward. not looking back. ]
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You know, if you were there, with me at home and we had this, I'd...
[ Is this appropriate to say? God, she hopes so, and Jane continues. ]
I'd make you godmother. If you wanted to be, of course. And it doesn't even matter here. I know it's a weird thing to even bring up, considering.
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peggy's breath catches. after a moment, she remembers to exhale. raw feeling gives way to something wry and protective. defensive only because she's unaccustomed to feeling quite this happy. ]
...A year ago, I would have laughed you out of the room.
[ and that's the truth. peggy carter, someone's godmum? ]
But for better or worse, Tony Stark is proof that I can be something to someone's child. [ so peggy slumps; she smiles. ] You say it doesn't matter here, Jane, but I think it actually matters quite a lot. The trust is there, after all, even if the duty isn't.
[ which is her very careful way of saying yes, god, of course she's accept. ]
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She should think differently maybe, that people disappear in Wonderland all the time and everyone should know how you feel at any given moment, but her mood is too light, too happy, for it to cross her mind. ]
Maybe I should be thanking Tony Stark, then, for softening you up.
[ Jane's teasing, and she pulls back. ]
I trust you. With everything.
[ Her fears, her tattoos, her burdens. It means a lot to her that in return, Peggy has trusted her with so very much. ]