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PEGGY CARTER | MCU | ENTRANCEWAY ( action, video, voice, or text )

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[revokes]

I'm afraid I became one.

big disappointment, I know. i'm working for the UN these days. government things.

balances and checks. we all need those.

[mucked]

Not a disappointment. Not at all. I suspect the world needs bureaucrats -- although I haven't yet stomached the idea that I'm on track to become one.

[revokes]

sometimes you gotta work with the system to make the world better.

or try to do the best we can. it's all we can do, which isn't really comforting when put like that.

[mucked]

Rather depends on the system.

[ some can be worked within. some -- the ones in the '40s -- have a way of grinding you down to dust. ]

[revokes]

but then, the same can and had been said about the avengers.

earths mightiest heroes or a bunch of idiots needing to be kept in check. it was bound to happen. I think for a long while, I tried to ignore it.

[mucked]

[ ...he's not hearing her. that's alright. maybe that's not what he needs, just now. ]

Earth's mightiest heroes or a bunch of idiots needing to be kept in check. Are those really the only two options?

[ this is gonna be one of THOSE talks. ]

[revokes]

[ there's something he wants to say and doesn't, you're beginning to sound like Rogers. but there are rules, and tony knows it'll be low to bring up steve. ]

according to many grieving mothers, yes. those are the two.

[ it stuck in his mind, Who's going to avenge my son, Stark? He's dead... and I blame you. ]

[mucked]

[ excuse you, rogers was the one beginning to sound like her....... ]

That's your guilty conscience speaking. Dichotemizing the problem solves nothing.

[revokes]

yeah, I heard as much.

[ at least he doesn't say from who. ]

[mucked]

[ he doesn't need to. ]

Frankly, I'd be surprised if that was his argument. He's usually far too much of a stubborn arse to allow for many shades of grey.

[revokes]

the best hands are still our own.

which okay sounds very heroic but I nearly destroyed the world trying to save it and he became a poster for the grey areas for his old army buddy.

people change.

[mucked]

People change.

[ peggy agrees.

and then she thinks she might have liked to confide in tony just then. to tell him why she's been so twisted into knots, strangely down on herself, the whole shebang. only it's a matter of the heart, isn't it?

and she won't have tony accusing her of being an adolescent once again. ]

Sometimes by quite a lot. On some days, I barely recognized the man I met here.

[revokes]

the weight of the world.

I'm not being sarcastic. it's a lot these days. the aliens made sure of that. he's a self-righteous asshole but I won't pretend the world's been fun.

[mucked]

It's not the world back home that engendered the most of it, I think. Change. But the three years he spent here.

[revokes]

seriously?

well. if we're still here in 2 years and I begin rambling about values and patriotism, shoot me.

[mucked]

I should damn well hope we're not both still here in two years. Good Lord.

[ -- it's not the values and it's not the patriotism she means, however. but it seems sulkish to bring up some of the finer points of her bad blood with steve rogers. ]

But you have my word. I'll keep a bullet with your name on it, shall I?

[ dark, but that in itself is a good sign. had she said something nice...? well, then we'd know trouble was afoot. ]

[revokes]

alongside that punch, yes?

[ it takes another moment but he does send her another message, an apology of a sort ]

I should have listened to you. about my ghost thing.

[mucked]

Yes. You really should have.

[ do as peggy says, they used to say among the howlies. ]

I was speaking from experience. Hard bloody won.

[revokes]

I know. I knew back then, too.

[ but he still didn't listen. it wasn't a logical decision but then, so few of his are when it comes to the matters of the heart. ]

I never told you about BARF, did I?it's not as bad as it sounds, just needs a better name.

[mucked]

It had better not be as bad as it sounds.

[ which is, of course, his signal to continue. ]

[revokes]

Binarily Augmented Retro-Framing. In short, it hacks into the brain, helps the whole process of handling, processing and clearing traumatic memories. cost me a couple hundred millions to develop.

it's a bit like what the last game was like. the memories in our rooms, only not as horrifying. It allows for changed and resolutions. I thought it could help people make peace with things they need to resolve, last goodbyes, words unspoken. things like that.

it didn't work for me, though. which I knew but I had to see him anyway.

[mucked]

It sounds as brilliant as it is macabre.

[ impressive -- but just a little bewildering. peggy's not certain she likes the sound of it, although the science behind it is devastatingly clever. ]

You say it didn't work for you. But it did work? That is, the mechanics of it.

[revokes]

of course it worked.

I invented it.

[mucked]

I wonder where I've heard that before.

[ look, she tries very hard not to draw direct lines between the father and the son. but this was one impossible not to make. ]

[revokes]

well.

You did know him better than I did.